"pastu dr ckp ape?"
"angin...gastrik sikit..."
"is that...a good news?"
"ye la...ayah rasa..."
"kenapa? were u expecting something else?"
"tah lah dik...badan dh tua ni...mcm mcm penyakit boleh dtg..."
"kalau doktor dh ckp mcm tu...yelah tu kot yah..."
"tahlah dik...takkan angin jer..."
"doktor tak kasi ape2?"
"ada...ubat...tgklah...mkn jerlah ubat ni..."
"u will be better yah...dun worry..."
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but everyone knew. u did not get better. and everyone realized. when your stomach twitched and turned, when you belched and belched and belched...when you got tired easily... ... ... it was not because of stupid angin...not because of the bloody gastric!!! it's not it's not it's not.
my heart ache. had ached; is aching; will ache. for the fact that...you did not just sit still and toy with your uncomfortableness. you worked hard to find the cure. you'd want to get better. i know you'd to get better. because...you want to see harris walk, wanna see him talk...wanna see lisa crawl...wanna see me grad, work and million other things! because, then...you were still young...i've just had you for 22 years....terlalu kejap...terlalu kejap untuk aye berhenti menggunakan perkataan ayah...berhenti memanggil ayah...itu sebab ayah memang berusaha nak pulihkan penyakit ayah masa tu...i knew it!!!!! home from that same procedure that i had today...you were relief...glad...knowing that...after endoscopy...they ruled it as angin, so angin it is people! but the pain persisted ayah...it persisted...again...
you went to various other hospitals...mind you... to the respectable ones...again, same diagnose...why didn't they drew it out as POLYPS? COLON POLYPS? why? why? why? why? why? why? they said they found ulcers; before ulcers, it was polyps; after ulcers, its cancerous!!!!
"angin...gastrik sikit..."
"is that...a good news?"
"ye la...ayah rasa..."
"kenapa? were u expecting something else?"
"tah lah dik...badan dh tua ni...mcm mcm penyakit boleh dtg..."
"kalau doktor dh ckp mcm tu...yelah tu kot yah..."
"tahlah dik...takkan angin jer..."
"doktor tak kasi ape2?"
"ada...ubat...tgklah...mkn jerlah ubat ni..."
"u will be better yah...dun worry..."
------------------------
but everyone knew. u did not get better. and everyone realized. when your stomach twitched and turned, when you belched and belched and belched...when you got tired easily... ... ... it was not because of stupid angin...not because of the bloody gastric!!! it's not it's not it's not.
my heart ache. had ached; is aching; will ache. for the fact that...you did not just sit still and toy with your uncomfortableness. you worked hard to find the cure. you'd want to get better. i know you'd to get better. because...you want to see harris walk, wanna see him talk...wanna see lisa crawl...wanna see me grad, work and million other things! because, then...you were still young...i've just had you for 22 years....terlalu kejap...terlalu kejap untuk aye berhenti menggunakan perkataan ayah...berhenti memanggil ayah...itu sebab ayah memang berusaha nak pulihkan penyakit ayah masa tu...i knew it!!!!! home from that same procedure that i had today...you were relief...glad...knowing that...after endoscopy...they ruled it as angin, so angin it is people! but the pain persisted ayah...it persisted...again...
you went to various other hospitals...mind you... to the respectable ones...again, same diagnose...why didn't they drew it out as POLYPS? COLON POLYPS? why? why? why? why? why? why? they said they found ulcers; before ulcers, it was polyps; after ulcers, its cancerous!!!!
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